Chapter 1
My name is Angel Walker. I live in Macedon. Not the greek city state but the uptown new york town. We are about a hour away from NYC. We have a pretty big highschool. We are the Trogings, ironicly i guess or maybe not. Football players arent all that smart. I live less then a mile from the school. I was born hear and ive lived hear all my life. I hate it.
Now im 17 years old. I would have long blonde hair. I would have been really pretty. But it didnt work out that way. It started with my mom, she was tall thin and had the same hair as me. So beatiful. I guess my father used to be a looker but now not so much.I was 15 when my father died. It was a car accident. I was in the back seat my mom and dad in the front. I was arguing with my dad about something. Back then i was full of life. My dad distracted by me pulled out right in the way of a truck. I got a few stiches in my face. My dad broke an arm and some ribs. My mom was rushed to the hospitol.
I remember the look my father gave to me when we were in the waiting room. Docters trying to save my mother. My father looked as if he was going to kill me. The docters came out they told us the news. They couldnt save my mother. My father stormed out of the hospitol. I was too afraid to follow. He left me at the hospitol. That night i walked a few miles then slept on a hill. Luckly it was summer. Then in the morning i walked back to my house. My father was no ware to be found. He came back later of coarse. But to this day my life has never been the same.
My father changed after my mom died. He changed or his real self just came out. He was always harsh he had always drank and yealled, but not like he does now. For the past 2 years he beat me. He got fired from his job and is now working at a bar. He made my life hell. He blammed me and so did i. How could i be so stupid.
Chapter 2
17 years old. Life is shit. But it had good parts. I had one friend. Or used to at least. Chad was his name. And he was loaded. Or at least his parents were. His parents were the oppisite of mine. Sweet careing loving. Chad bought me cloths school supplies everything i needed. I slept at his house a lot. Chad who was also by definition "popular" defended me at school. But at the end of last year my souphmore year he left for California. His parents weeped and pleaded for forgiveness but there law ferm had basicly traded them like baseball cards.
His good by present to me was a sleek black sports car. Not like a hundred thosand dollar car. Mazda Miate. I think. It was a convertable but i could have the cealling come up. My father litterly never went in the garage he didnt know i had it. The gargae and my room had locks on them so he couldent get in. So i hid in my room or the park all summer. But the junior year was coming soon. I would have to face school again soon.
Speaking of school. I mentioned football right? Yeah my school was the number one football school in New York. We had so many alpha male douchbags it was crazy. But the girls were worse trust me. Okay so you've probably guessed by now im not miss popular. Im not on the cheer captine. Im what you would call emo. When my mom died i started connecting with certain types of bands. I started wareing darker clothing. I started using drugs. Just weed and alchohole in the begining then some other stuff. But Chad got me to stop. So i turned to other methodes of makeing my self feel better. Blood, cuts, scars. A razer helped me. Helped me take the guilt away from killing my mother.
So i died my long blonde hair black. I wore dark make up i kept my skin pale white. I wore long sleeve shirts and held the cloth over my wristes. I wore hoods all black.
My room was plane. I didnt have much. Everything was broken. My closet was stacked. I had a safe but the money was dwindelling. So hear i was. Starring at my computer screen. Not doing anything on it because i had no intrests. It was the first day of school i should probably get ready or something.
I opened my closet. What to ware. Hmmm black. Yeah that sounded right. Tight black skinny jeans. Black converse. Black shirt v neck long sleeves. Extra long. I could grab the ends. I didnt have a hood witch was risky. So i put on a black hat. I looked in the mirror. I was tall skinny. My face was pure white. Was i pretty? I mean yeah if i took off the weird makeup and let my natural hair out. But i couldnt do that now. I was ugly now. Cuts and bruses all over.
I grabbed my bag and burst out of my room. My father was passed out on the couch. Last night i got hit with a bottle but not too much damage. I snuck past him and to the garage. I inputted my code and opened the door. Quietly of coarse. I closed the door behind me. I got into my prised possesion and turned the key. It roared to life. I backed out of the garage and onto the street. It was like a minute drive but i didnt want to walk. I rode past the park and too school.
I parked far away from the school and got out. Thosands of students were streaming into the doors. A junior thats what i was now. I slung my bag on and walked in the doors. I made my way through my first few classes with out being noticed. Till lunch. At first it all seemed to be all right. I sat at a table alone in the corner of the room. Unluckly the football jocks sat in the table right next to me.
At first they left me alone. But i got some spaghetti flung at me. Brock the middle backer and captine came up to me. He sat down next to me. I turned away.
Brock "hey babe, wanna hang out some time, your so" He started to say pretty but laughed. I spoke back sharply
"i dont go out with morons"
Brock "HA, i dont go out with freaks" Brock was dateing Ashley. The oppisite of me. Tall blonde cheer captine. She sat at the table now. Playing along with the joke.
Ashley "Brock your leaveing me for this" She said motining to me. Brock nodded laughing.
Ashley " Well i guess i cant blame you, coverd in black beaten and cut up is totally in right now" Everybody died laughing. I grabbed my bag and ran away.
I spent the rest of the period in the girls bath room. One of Ashley's minions came in and threw some water on my head. That was day one. I got through it. I didnt cry i was used to it.
When i got home i parked my car. I snuck in the door and made my way to my room. But half way up the stairs my father appeared at the top. Vadcu in his hand. My make up was smeered from the water i was hit with. It looked like i had been crying.
My father screamed at me "YOU CRYING CAUSE YOU RECKED MY LIFE, killed your mama, your fault, you ugly bitch!" He slung the beer bottle at me. I jumped back. It hit me in the hip. I tumbled down the stairs as he laughed. That hurt. Out side and in. Real tears now. How could anybody be this cruel?
I jumped up and scrambled out the door sobbing. I ran and didnt stop until i got to my park. Some kids were playing on the swings. I ran up to my hill and jogged up it. To my tree. It steapped up onto it and in a burrow i took out my razer.
I held the razer in my hand. Tears dripping off my face. Why was this life? I did it have to be this hard? There wasnt any god if their was he wouldnt let me go through this. I pulled up my left arm's sleeve. It was coverd in cuts. I was disgusting i was such trash. I let the blade graze across my skin. The blood poured out. I let it bleed until all the pain went away and it was just numb.
CChapter 3
I went through a few weeks. Just droning on. Same thing everyday. Brock and Ashley at school. Everybody refusing to help me. My father at home. Not feeling safe. I was in a class the back of the room. I listened to music. The teachers didnt stop me anymore. They knew i was a lost cause. A new kid was in class. He was big and tall. He was wearing a football jersey. So he was joining the team. He had frisky blonde hair. He was ripped. He had blue eyes. Nice eyes. He walked down the ille. No no no no no. He sat right next to me. All the girls gave me dirty stares.
Class started. He flipped a note onto my desk.
Im Zack, whats your name? He wrote
I responded , Angel,
Him, And what do you do Angel?
I didnt respond. He threw another peice of paper on my desk.
I like your hair. It said.
I wrote back, What do you want from me?
He wrote, To be in your life you seem cool. Me cool right.
I wrote back, im not cool. After class he followed me to my locker. Brock got their at the same time. Brock was a inch taller then Zack and had more muscle. By the look of Zack and his number he looked like a quarterback. Yeah i knew football.
I opened my locker. Brock slammed it shut.
Brock "what do you need in their, a razer blade?" I turned to leave.
Zack "whats your problem man?"
Brock "my problem what the hell are you doing on her side."
Zack narrowed his eyes, he took a steap towards Brock "you should leave now!" Brock turned and walked away muttering. Zack turned to me.
"so can we hang out now?" I smiled
"fine but not today tommarow"
I was smiling as i ran out. I was going to be ready for the next day. I wore my nicest closes. And skipped school. I pulled up in my mazda at the end of the day. He looked at my car with raised eyebrows. I laughed. He got in and i drove to the park.
We ate a picknic and talked. He was a sophmore 16 years old but he seemed older. He was going to be the starting qb for the varsity team. Witch we were going undefeated.
At our date he made me feel safe i was happy. So when we kissed. I let him do what ever he wanted.
We went on dates we had a great time. I didnt dred living and he liked my car. We had a intimite relationship and it was growing. I was all giggly i never knew i could be like this. Homecoming was happening. I went and wore his jersey. Even Ashley was leaving me alone.
The night before home coming we went out to dinner. In my car we rode to a dinner. There we talked and talked until finally he looked up at me with his cute little eyes and said the words.
"i love you" I cried and said them back.
chapter 4
It was homecoming the biggest game of the regualar season. We were playing Red town. They were also undefeated out hated rivuls. They had their own superstar. He was rumered to be the best in the nation. The Raiders charged out onto the feild. He was in the middle standing out. He was 6'2 ish. Taller then almost anybody else on the feild. He had long brown hair hanging out from behid him. His nailes were painted random colors. And he looked good. Number 17 name Adam.
It was a battle. We had the ball first. Zack made a few good passes. But Brock the fullback missed a block. Zack tried to scramble he threw a bad pass. Adam darted in front of it and picked it off. He ran a few yards before Brock jumped on his back taking him down.
They ran a few plays that didnt do much. Then Adam ran a short out route. The QB hit him in stride. He cut up feild past the d back. He sprinted up to the saftey. The saftey dived at him but Adam leaped and jumped over him. Adam hit the feild and kept on running all the way for the touchdown. They missed the extra point. 6-0.
Brock pushed forward down the feild. Then Zack threw it in. We hit the extra point. We were up 7-6. That was the first quarter. Second quarter. Adam ran a slant. The ball was throne to him. But Brock slammed him first. Adam flatend to the ground. Brock jumped over him pushed him down agian and screamed in his face.
" STAY DOWN FAGGOT!" Some Red players pushed Brock off. Adam got up slowly. They traded the ball for a while now. With 5 seconds left Raiders ball. Adam ran straight down the feild. Brock chased after him. Adam cut back and caught the ball he charged forward and collided with Brock. They smashed. Adam ripped and threw Brock to the ground. Then he sped to the touchdown. They were up at the half. 12-7.
At half time. Adam grabbed the mic. He yealled to our crowd.
"I personly will guarinte that you will not win the championship this year." Our crowed screamed curses at him. Second half. We stopped them and got the ball. Zack faked a hand off. Brock and Adam smashed leaveing Zack wide open. He ran 50 yards for a TD. We were up 13-12. They scored once for Adam bullied his way up. 19-13 them. Then Zack threw a Touchdown to Brock with 5 seconds left. The crowed screamed i squealled. We got a 2 point conversion. Brock right up the middle. 21-19 us. But they had one more play left.
Adam jetted down the feild. 2 d-backs blanketed him with Brock trailing. But they threw it anyway. Adam jumped for it. He caught it. Brock smashed him in the air and he flipped. Right onto his feet. A player jumped on his back. Adam threw him off and jumped over him. Zack screamed. Another at Adam, he spun away. Then he ran into the endzone. The red hook fans screamed. We had been destroyed.
When our players went to the locker room i ran for Zack. His dirty blonde hair was all messed up. I grabbed him. Telling him it was all right. But he yealled at me. He told me he needed his space. I asked him if he still wanted a ride to the pro game but he said he wanted to ride with his friends.
All the football players in the game got a ticket to a semi pro game. So all the Red kids and Trojens were going. A recipy for disaster. I rode alone in my car. I understood Zack needed his space. This was hard on him.
I rode into the parking lot of the stadiem. It was almost 8 ocklock witch was kick off. It had started to rain. Not poor just a little drizzel. I walked into the stadium and looked around for Zack. It was a feild with a lot of bleechers around it so i guess it wasnt technicly a stadium but you know what i mean.
The first people i saw were the red hook people. They were up in the corner of the bleechers about 20 feet up. Adam was sided by the quarterback a skinny red haired kid and probably the prettiest girl ive ever seen, like better looking then Ashley by a lot. Around him was all his friends. A bunch of them i recognized as players. One of the line men i think his name was Brandon pointed at me and said something. They all laughed. Jerks.
I walked around looking for Zack but i couldnt find him. I called and texted them but he didnt respond. Maybe he wasnt hear. I saw the beatiful blonde girl from red hook waiting in line at the conssesion stand. Brock walked over to her. I was going to ask Brock ware Zack was so i walked over.
Brock was hitting on the girl.
Brock "So whats your name?"
Girl "im Cardnial"
Brock"well im-"
Cardnial "i know who you are and im really not interesting."
Brock "bitch" He slapped the drink out of Cardnial's hand.
"HEY" i heard a yell.
The red hook quarterback Jacob and Brandon came over.
"Get out of here" Jacob spat in Brock's face. Brock had both of them by at least 5 inches and a lot of muscle.
Brock "who's gunna make me?"
Jacob "who do you think idiot" i had to giggle at that. Brock pushed Jacob. When Jacob veered back to attack Adam jumped out of no ware and grabbed Jacob.
Adam "Dont, he's not worth it" Jacob put his arm back. "come on lets go"
Zack brushed past me he called to Adam
Zack "The faggots dont want to fight" The red hook kids just walked away. That was upsetting but i found Zack. Of coarse he had to go home and take a shower. Why didnt i think of that. Brock and Zack slapped hands. And begain to walk away. They walked to the back of the bleechers and some other guys and Ashley came over. I followed.
"Uuuh Zack" I asked. He was talking with Brock about the game he didnt hear me. I wiggled through the crowed. Aschley scoffed. I tugged on his arm. He wripped away from me.
"Whats wrong?" i asked
Zack "bets over"
"what do you mean"
"i only had to date you till home coming, it was just a initiation prank"
All the guys broke out laughing. Ashley exhaled
Ashley "thank god"
"YOur liying!" i screamed. Tears ran down my face. I grabbed his hand.
Zack "get off of me" He wripped his hand away and pushed me against the fence. I smashed into it and bounced off. Brock stuck out his foot and tripped me. I fell into a pile of mud. The rain hitting my body. Ashley looked down at me. She kicked. Her foot hit my face. Zack took a kick. A few other guys too. I tried to stand but they pushed me back again. My face was bleeding. Ashley grabbed me by the hair. Hissing in my ear as she dragged me
"Like you could ever have anybody on this earth actually love you, you stupid ugly bitch." She threw my face down and stomped on me. I rolled over onto my back. Ashley grabbed my hair and pulled so i sat up.
At that moment somebody jumped down from the top of the stands and landed in our group. I couldnt see the face. Just a red hook jersey. Number 17. Ashely let go of me. A guy fell on the ground then another. Brock went at Adam. Brock swong. Adam dodged and slammed him in the face three times and Brock fell on his back. A guy grabbed Adam by the back. Adam flipped him over his back. Brock slammed Adam with his sholder and they both went down. Adam jumped up swung but took a punch in the face. He wripped free from Brock. Zack punched and hit Adam in the nose. Adam ignored it and punched Zack knocking him out. Brock grabbed Adam and slammed him on the ground. Asheley came over and kicked him in the face. Just then the whole red hook team stormed at us and the Macedon people ran. Except for me.
Most the red hook kids chased Brock and Zack. Cardnial stayed she was tending to Adam.
Adam "im fine im fine." He stood up and walked over to me. He stuck out his hand and i grabbed it. He lifted me up.
Adam "is their some place ware i can wash all this off" He motioned to his muddy face. I nodded. I walked towards the school. Adam and Cardnial followed. But Adam told Cardnial to go back.
Adam"Are you okay?"
I nodded "happens more then you think"
Adam "really, why?, thats terrible" I shrugged. We got to the bath room. I went in the girls and Adam followed. It was a one person bath room. I put on the water and motioned to him.
"you can go first" He smiled and laughed a little
Adam "no your going to"
I washed my hands and my face. Just a small cut on my forhead. I sat on the tolit as he washed his face.
Adam "theres really no reson they mess with you "
"the obvius ,im weird, im ugly"
Adam smiled "your not ugly"
"yeah yeah i am"
Adam "you might be weird i cant speak for that personaly i think its a good thing, but your definitly not ugly" I blushed. He walked up to me.
Adam "come on" he out stretched his hand "your under my protection now." I smiled he lead me out of the school and up to his section of the bleechers. All his friends including Cardnial was their. He lead me up to the top row.
Adam "okay everybody listen up, this is Angel and she is under our protection" They all cheered. Brandon yealled
"get some sloth!" I spoke to Adam
"i dont and really dont want to know what that means"
Adam "yeah you dont" The red hook kids cheered and yealled and were all actually super nice. I was standing next to Adam and on the other side Cardnial who didnt talk to me. Half time came and went and when we all got back it was so cold we we sat down. Cardnial had a blanket and Adam spread it over us three. I was in the middle. Adam snuggled over to me and grabbed my arm. Around the third corner and put his head under the blanket so i did too.
Adam "you want to go some place else"
"totally"
We waded through the crowds and to a hill ware nobody was on. The rain had stopped. We lied down looking over the game. He put his hands behind his head. He asked a lot of queastions and eventually got most my life story out of me.
"what about you?"
Adam "what about me?"
"your Adam all star football player, guy with long hair and painted nails"
Adam "that basicly describes me"
"what about Cardnial, is she your " I trialed off.
Adam "we used to be together but we are taking a break, still friends tho"
"okay okay" I said nodding.
Adam"why do you cut your wristes?"
I shook my head "you know why"
Adam "i dont"
"because they hate me"
Adam "you do it because of them?"
"no i do it because of me"
He grabbed my hands "Angel accept your self, your beatiful"
i pulled down my sleeves revealling my full arms every inch cut and sliced.
"how is this beatiful?!"
I got up crying again.
Adam "Angel dont"
"no i cant im sorry Adam," I ran away to the parking lot. He jogged besides me trying to talk to me asking me what was wrong what he said. I cried and got into my car. I turned it on and pulled out Adam was still following me. I pulled out and drove. Adam sprinted in the street he was keeping up until i got onto a main rode then i lost him.
Chapter 5
I druged throug a few weeks at school. Just like Zack and Adam never happend. Why had i run out on Adam. I was emotinal. I was hurt from Zack. I was to unstable to do some thing. My arms hardly bleed anymore so i moved to the legs.
Untill one day at school. The art students from red hook came to Macedon for a art show. Adam was among them. It just so happens i was in the art room.
"Whats up" He said to me leaning against some shelves as i worked.
"your an art student?"
Adam "totally, what are you drawing?"
"its an Angel"
Adam "your good."
i looked up at him. His brown hair was absolutly beatiful hanging over his face. He wore black jeans and shoes with a v neck and black jacket.
"thank you, Adam im sorry for being a bitch"
Adam "dont worry about it i can be pretty bitchy too" I giggled.
Adam "so would you please do me the honor of giving me your phone number. I did. I gave him my phone number. We spent the rest of the school day looking at art. His sucked. Plus we made out in a broom closet.
I stopped cutting. At least mostly. I met up with Adam every few days. I uselly went down to him because he didnt have a car. I met most of his friends and they became my friends too. I remember the first time he showed me off.
They had just finished a football game. Witch they won btw. Adam ran off the feild with his whole school watching. I was dressed in all black. I walked out onto the track. He picked me up and kissed me. The whole crowed erupted. As the team ran by Brandon gave me a high five. Jacob said hey to me. This is how life was supposed to be.
Chapter 6
It was champion ship week. Or semi champion ship week. The Raiders were undefeated and all ready in the championship. The Trojans were in the semi championship. The trojans who were 11-1. Were facing Annexbergue at 9-3. Annexbergue was called the lightning. They had bright yellow and pink jerseys compared to Macedon's black and orange ones.
The red hook kids. And me an honerery red hook kid watched intently. We were scouting them i also hung out at some of the trojans practices watching them. Then telling Adam what they did. The lightning was fast and verygood passers. Their QB was hurt the whole season and now he was back. Darko was his name. Taller then Brock and lean and mean. Lightning had the ball first. Darko hiked it rolled out faked and pass and kept the ball. He ran 20 yards before he went out of bounds.
Next play Darko faked a hand off that Brock fell for then threw it long. Past Zack and to his player who fell out of bounds at the 10. Next play. Darko hiked it he rolled out and ran he juked and got past Brock. He sprinted at he line and siff armed Zack in for the touchdown. 7-0 lightning.
Trojens ball. Zack hiked it he faked a hand off to Brock and ran back. He whipped the ball to his reciver. Darko jumped up and snagged it with one hand. He ran spun and in for a TD. 14-0 Lightning. Darko was unstoppable. Zack passed to Brock who trucked a few lightning players to get a ten yard touchdown. 14-7. Then Darko drove down the feild. He got to the 15. When he ran a boot play. He ran out nobody was open. So he ran out. He cut in past Zack right into Brock. Brock grabbed Darko. He lifted jumped and twisted. Slambing Darko down on the feild. Darko yealled. Brock screamed down at Darko.
Darko clutched his sholder and they brought him off in a stretcher. He had fumbled the ball so it was Trojen ball. They drove down the feild and tied it up. That was the end of the first. In the second quarter the Trojens scored three times. 35-14 Macedon. At half time i went to get a hot dog. Adam was throwing a ball with Jacob so i went alone.
"wait" I heard a voice. It was Cardnial "ill go with you" Oh no another pretty mean blonde girl. She's going to reck everything. As we were walking she asked me questions.
Cardnial "so how do you feel about Adam"
"i i i like him"
Cardnial "do you really like him or are you just playing around"
"i mean im "
Cardnial "jesus why are u so nervous its not like im going to hit you"
"im sorry"
Cardnail "look i know you might be scared of me or something, but i just want whats best for Adam, i guess what im trying to say is im okay with you two being together, not like you need my approvel but if you felt some kind of weirdness just know im okay with it"
So Cardnial was actually pretty cool. But back to football. The ending score was Annexburgue 14 to Macedon 69. It wasnt even close. And Adam didnt really learn a lot. After the game we all went out to dinner.
When we were leaving we saw Ashley wispering into Zack's ear. They were looking at us. We went to a nice restuarant witch Cardnial who was super rich payed for all of us. We ate to our hearts delight. Adam held my hand the whole time.
The night before the championship game. The game was going to be at Macedon. Because they had one more win the Red Hook. Trojens 15-1. Raiders 14-0. Plus the Trojens had scored more points.
Adam was out side my house. I got in my car and left when my dad stumbled out. He yealled
"DONT YOU RAPE MY DAUGHTER" Adam looked at me
"He's drunk"
Adam "ah nice to meet you Mr.Walker." I drove off. We went to the park. At the park Brock and Zack were waiting. I wanted to leave but Adam wouldnt let me. We walked out and past them. They ran up behind us. Brock shoved Adam.
Brock "faggot" Adam just shook his head.
Zack grabbed my wrist
Zack "gimmi some bi-" Like lightning Adam punch Zack in the face. Zack dropped. Brock tackled Adam. Adam dragged him self out and they both stood up. Brock punched Adam blocked and elbowed Brock in the face twice. Brock punched and hit Adam in the stomach. Adam was lifted up in the air. But he stayed in his face. He hit right left right. All three in Brock's face and Brock fell. They left.
We went to my tree with my razer blades that i handt used in monthes. In that tree me and Adam made out. He put his hands up my shirt and i bite his neck. It was great. At the end of the night he spoke before he got picked up. In the tree entagled in each other.
"Angel i love you"
I cried and sobbed out "i love you too."
Chapter 7
I was in Red Hook. Adam and me had slept on the game feild last night. It was time for him to go get ready so i kissed him good by. I looked into his deep brown eyes and said the words agian.
"i love you"
Adam "love you too"
Adam jogged off and i got in my car and drove back to my house. I made a play list for Adam. Yeah i know its cliche but it was our kind of thing. I was downloading it and listening to music for like an hour in my room. When i got it i put the ipod in my pocket and looked in the mirror. Yeah i was pretty. I wore black jeans blue shoes. A grey shirt and black jacket. My skin was white but not ghostly white like it used to be. My scars were fading and i hadnt died my hair in a while. So it was in the middle of golden blonde and black witch was a blondeish whitesh thing.
I also put on a white scarf as it was getting pretty cold out. I ran down stairs. Past my dad who was passed out and into the garge. And i saw it. The car Chad had bought me. It was smashed. The wind sheild was broken. All the sides were dent up. THe seats were wripped up the tires were slashed. I screamed and ran up stairs. I ripped open a box and took out a little extreamly sharp knife i used to cut with on special occasions. I slashed up my arm and then licked the blood. Ashley was going to pay.
I ran the mile to the school the game had allready started. Knife in my pocket. The score was tied up 7-7 and it was half time. I decided to watch the game. I leaned up against the fence. Half time begain with the Trojans ball. They ran it up the middle with Brock almost every play and scored. 14-7.
Jacob dropped back. Brock blitzed and Brandon jumped at him. They smashed and both of them went down. Jacob launched the ball. Adam was running past everybody else he caught the ball and ran it all the way for the touchdown. 14-14. Brock smashed the ground.
Zack threw a touchdown and Jacob kicked a feildgoal to end the quarter. Trojans-21 Raiders-17. The fourth quarter begain. Brock and Zack lead a massive drive down to the one yard line. They took up alot of time but now it was 4th down on the one. They gave it to Brock right up the middle. He ran stright into Brandon who stopped him. Jacob went around Brock's legs and Adam smashed him and Brock tumbled down. The Raiders all screamed in joy.
They had 2 minutes to score. They drove. But durning it I saw Ashley. I walked up to her and got right in her face.
"How dare you mess with my car"
Ashley "how dare i?" she laughed. I drew my knife.
Ashley "i didnt trash your car, but i do have something to show you, she took out her phone. Look what i found. It was a video of Adam kissing Cardnial. Passonite long kissing. I died. In that moment i finally gave up and died in side. That was the last straw. I ran away ashley and her friends fallowed i climbed up a rock and they surrounded me. I looked back to the football game.
The clock had run out but they were still going. Jacob dropped back. Brock blitzed Brandon rammed him. Brock kicked and slammed Brandon's knee. Brandon fell to the ground in pain. Brock ran at Jacob. Jacob spun and threw the ball. Adam ran and jumped he caught the ball and rammed into Zack flattening him. I held the knife to my throat.
Adam sprinted into the end zone. The raiders won. Woubtey fucking do. Cardnial ran out onto the feild. She grabbed Adam. He had the biggest smile in the world on his fucking face. But Cardnial pointed to me. Adam looked. He dropped his helmate and sprinted to me.
"ANGEL!" He screamed. Adam jumped the fence and bolted to me. He ran up and started to climb.
"dont" I said holding the knife to my neck.
Adam "Angel why?"
"she showed me the video" I motined to Ashley.
Adam looked at Ashley. She shook his head. "that was from last season"
"it doesnt matter im still damegaed goods, ill always be the ugly little slut, why would you ever love me when you have a girl like Cardnial or Ashley, why would anybody ever want me" I ripped the knife across my neck. Blood poured out and i fainted to the ground.
Adam scrambled up and held me up. He looked down at me. His eyes were big and shaking.
"No" He wisperd "Angel no" Blood poured out of my neck, His tears mixed with my blood. I wispered.
"im so sorry Adam" Then everything went black.
My name is Angel Walker. I live in Macedon. Not the greek city state but the uptown new york town. We are about a hour away from NYC. We have a pretty big highschool. We are the Trogings, ironicly i guess or maybe not. Football players arent all that smart. I live less then a mile from the school. I was born hear and ive lived hear all my life. I hate it.
Now im 17 years old. I would have long blonde hair. I would have been really pretty. But it didnt work out that way. It started with my mom, she was tall thin and had the same hair as me. So beatiful. I guess my father used to be a looker but now not so much.I was 15 when my father died. It was a car accident. I was in the back seat my mom and dad in the front. I was arguing with my dad about something. Back then i was full of life. My dad distracted by me pulled out right in the way of a truck. I got a few stiches in my face. My dad broke an arm and some ribs. My mom was rushed to the hospitol.
I remember the look my father gave to me when we were in the waiting room. Docters trying to save my mother. My father looked as if he was going to kill me. The docters came out they told us the news. They couldnt save my mother. My father stormed out of the hospitol. I was too afraid to follow. He left me at the hospitol. That night i walked a few miles then slept on a hill. Luckly it was summer. Then in the morning i walked back to my house. My father was no ware to be found. He came back later of coarse. But to this day my life has never been the same.
My father changed after my mom died. He changed or his real self just came out. He was always harsh he had always drank and yealled, but not like he does now. For the past 2 years he beat me. He got fired from his job and is now working at a bar. He made my life hell. He blammed me and so did i. How could i be so stupid.
Chapter 2
17 years old. Life is shit. But it had good parts. I had one friend. Or used to at least. Chad was his name. And he was loaded. Or at least his parents were. His parents were the oppisite of mine. Sweet careing loving. Chad bought me cloths school supplies everything i needed. I slept at his house a lot. Chad who was also by definition "popular" defended me at school. But at the end of last year my souphmore year he left for California. His parents weeped and pleaded for forgiveness but there law ferm had basicly traded them like baseball cards.
His good by present to me was a sleek black sports car. Not like a hundred thosand dollar car. Mazda Miate. I think. It was a convertable but i could have the cealling come up. My father litterly never went in the garage he didnt know i had it. The gargae and my room had locks on them so he couldent get in. So i hid in my room or the park all summer. But the junior year was coming soon. I would have to face school again soon.
Speaking of school. I mentioned football right? Yeah my school was the number one football school in New York. We had so many alpha male douchbags it was crazy. But the girls were worse trust me. Okay so you've probably guessed by now im not miss popular. Im not on the cheer captine. Im what you would call emo. When my mom died i started connecting with certain types of bands. I started wareing darker clothing. I started using drugs. Just weed and alchohole in the begining then some other stuff. But Chad got me to stop. So i turned to other methodes of makeing my self feel better. Blood, cuts, scars. A razer helped me. Helped me take the guilt away from killing my mother.
So i died my long blonde hair black. I wore dark make up i kept my skin pale white. I wore long sleeve shirts and held the cloth over my wristes. I wore hoods all black.
My room was plane. I didnt have much. Everything was broken. My closet was stacked. I had a safe but the money was dwindelling. So hear i was. Starring at my computer screen. Not doing anything on it because i had no intrests. It was the first day of school i should probably get ready or something.
I opened my closet. What to ware. Hmmm black. Yeah that sounded right. Tight black skinny jeans. Black converse. Black shirt v neck long sleeves. Extra long. I could grab the ends. I didnt have a hood witch was risky. So i put on a black hat. I looked in the mirror. I was tall skinny. My face was pure white. Was i pretty? I mean yeah if i took off the weird makeup and let my natural hair out. But i couldnt do that now. I was ugly now. Cuts and bruses all over.
I grabbed my bag and burst out of my room. My father was passed out on the couch. Last night i got hit with a bottle but not too much damage. I snuck past him and to the garage. I inputted my code and opened the door. Quietly of coarse. I closed the door behind me. I got into my prised possesion and turned the key. It roared to life. I backed out of the garage and onto the street. It was like a minute drive but i didnt want to walk. I rode past the park and too school.
I parked far away from the school and got out. Thosands of students were streaming into the doors. A junior thats what i was now. I slung my bag on and walked in the doors. I made my way through my first few classes with out being noticed. Till lunch. At first it all seemed to be all right. I sat at a table alone in the corner of the room. Unluckly the football jocks sat in the table right next to me.
At first they left me alone. But i got some spaghetti flung at me. Brock the middle backer and captine came up to me. He sat down next to me. I turned away.
Brock "hey babe, wanna hang out some time, your so" He started to say pretty but laughed. I spoke back sharply
"i dont go out with morons"
Brock "HA, i dont go out with freaks" Brock was dateing Ashley. The oppisite of me. Tall blonde cheer captine. She sat at the table now. Playing along with the joke.
Ashley "Brock your leaveing me for this" She said motining to me. Brock nodded laughing.
Ashley " Well i guess i cant blame you, coverd in black beaten and cut up is totally in right now" Everybody died laughing. I grabbed my bag and ran away.
I spent the rest of the period in the girls bath room. One of Ashley's minions came in and threw some water on my head. That was day one. I got through it. I didnt cry i was used to it.
When i got home i parked my car. I snuck in the door and made my way to my room. But half way up the stairs my father appeared at the top. Vadcu in his hand. My make up was smeered from the water i was hit with. It looked like i had been crying.
My father screamed at me "YOU CRYING CAUSE YOU RECKED MY LIFE, killed your mama, your fault, you ugly bitch!" He slung the beer bottle at me. I jumped back. It hit me in the hip. I tumbled down the stairs as he laughed. That hurt. Out side and in. Real tears now. How could anybody be this cruel?
I jumped up and scrambled out the door sobbing. I ran and didnt stop until i got to my park. Some kids were playing on the swings. I ran up to my hill and jogged up it. To my tree. It steapped up onto it and in a burrow i took out my razer.
I held the razer in my hand. Tears dripping off my face. Why was this life? I did it have to be this hard? There wasnt any god if their was he wouldnt let me go through this. I pulled up my left arm's sleeve. It was coverd in cuts. I was disgusting i was such trash. I let the blade graze across my skin. The blood poured out. I let it bleed until all the pain went away and it was just numb.
CChapter 3
I went through a few weeks. Just droning on. Same thing everyday. Brock and Ashley at school. Everybody refusing to help me. My father at home. Not feeling safe. I was in a class the back of the room. I listened to music. The teachers didnt stop me anymore. They knew i was a lost cause. A new kid was in class. He was big and tall. He was wearing a football jersey. So he was joining the team. He had frisky blonde hair. He was ripped. He had blue eyes. Nice eyes. He walked down the ille. No no no no no. He sat right next to me. All the girls gave me dirty stares.
Class started. He flipped a note onto my desk.
Im Zack, whats your name? He wrote
I responded , Angel,
Him, And what do you do Angel?
I didnt respond. He threw another peice of paper on my desk.
I like your hair. It said.
I wrote back, What do you want from me?
He wrote, To be in your life you seem cool. Me cool right.
I wrote back, im not cool. After class he followed me to my locker. Brock got their at the same time. Brock was a inch taller then Zack and had more muscle. By the look of Zack and his number he looked like a quarterback. Yeah i knew football.
I opened my locker. Brock slammed it shut.
Brock "what do you need in their, a razer blade?" I turned to leave.
Zack "whats your problem man?"
Brock "my problem what the hell are you doing on her side."
Zack narrowed his eyes, he took a steap towards Brock "you should leave now!" Brock turned and walked away muttering. Zack turned to me.
"so can we hang out now?" I smiled
"fine but not today tommarow"
I was smiling as i ran out. I was going to be ready for the next day. I wore my nicest closes. And skipped school. I pulled up in my mazda at the end of the day. He looked at my car with raised eyebrows. I laughed. He got in and i drove to the park.
We ate a picknic and talked. He was a sophmore 16 years old but he seemed older. He was going to be the starting qb for the varsity team. Witch we were going undefeated.
At our date he made me feel safe i was happy. So when we kissed. I let him do what ever he wanted.
We went on dates we had a great time. I didnt dred living and he liked my car. We had a intimite relationship and it was growing. I was all giggly i never knew i could be like this. Homecoming was happening. I went and wore his jersey. Even Ashley was leaving me alone.
The night before home coming we went out to dinner. In my car we rode to a dinner. There we talked and talked until finally he looked up at me with his cute little eyes and said the words.
"i love you" I cried and said them back.
chapter 4
It was homecoming the biggest game of the regualar season. We were playing Red town. They were also undefeated out hated rivuls. They had their own superstar. He was rumered to be the best in the nation. The Raiders charged out onto the feild. He was in the middle standing out. He was 6'2 ish. Taller then almost anybody else on the feild. He had long brown hair hanging out from behid him. His nailes were painted random colors. And he looked good. Number 17 name Adam.
It was a battle. We had the ball first. Zack made a few good passes. But Brock the fullback missed a block. Zack tried to scramble he threw a bad pass. Adam darted in front of it and picked it off. He ran a few yards before Brock jumped on his back taking him down.
They ran a few plays that didnt do much. Then Adam ran a short out route. The QB hit him in stride. He cut up feild past the d back. He sprinted up to the saftey. The saftey dived at him but Adam leaped and jumped over him. Adam hit the feild and kept on running all the way for the touchdown. They missed the extra point. 6-0.
Brock pushed forward down the feild. Then Zack threw it in. We hit the extra point. We were up 7-6. That was the first quarter. Second quarter. Adam ran a slant. The ball was throne to him. But Brock slammed him first. Adam flatend to the ground. Brock jumped over him pushed him down agian and screamed in his face.
" STAY DOWN FAGGOT!" Some Red players pushed Brock off. Adam got up slowly. They traded the ball for a while now. With 5 seconds left Raiders ball. Adam ran straight down the feild. Brock chased after him. Adam cut back and caught the ball he charged forward and collided with Brock. They smashed. Adam ripped and threw Brock to the ground. Then he sped to the touchdown. They were up at the half. 12-7.
At half time. Adam grabbed the mic. He yealled to our crowd.
"I personly will guarinte that you will not win the championship this year." Our crowed screamed curses at him. Second half. We stopped them and got the ball. Zack faked a hand off. Brock and Adam smashed leaveing Zack wide open. He ran 50 yards for a TD. We were up 13-12. They scored once for Adam bullied his way up. 19-13 them. Then Zack threw a Touchdown to Brock with 5 seconds left. The crowed screamed i squealled. We got a 2 point conversion. Brock right up the middle. 21-19 us. But they had one more play left.
Adam jetted down the feild. 2 d-backs blanketed him with Brock trailing. But they threw it anyway. Adam jumped for it. He caught it. Brock smashed him in the air and he flipped. Right onto his feet. A player jumped on his back. Adam threw him off and jumped over him. Zack screamed. Another at Adam, he spun away. Then he ran into the endzone. The red hook fans screamed. We had been destroyed.
When our players went to the locker room i ran for Zack. His dirty blonde hair was all messed up. I grabbed him. Telling him it was all right. But he yealled at me. He told me he needed his space. I asked him if he still wanted a ride to the pro game but he said he wanted to ride with his friends.
All the football players in the game got a ticket to a semi pro game. So all the Red kids and Trojens were going. A recipy for disaster. I rode alone in my car. I understood Zack needed his space. This was hard on him.
I rode into the parking lot of the stadiem. It was almost 8 ocklock witch was kick off. It had started to rain. Not poor just a little drizzel. I walked into the stadium and looked around for Zack. It was a feild with a lot of bleechers around it so i guess it wasnt technicly a stadium but you know what i mean.
The first people i saw were the red hook people. They were up in the corner of the bleechers about 20 feet up. Adam was sided by the quarterback a skinny red haired kid and probably the prettiest girl ive ever seen, like better looking then Ashley by a lot. Around him was all his friends. A bunch of them i recognized as players. One of the line men i think his name was Brandon pointed at me and said something. They all laughed. Jerks.
I walked around looking for Zack but i couldnt find him. I called and texted them but he didnt respond. Maybe he wasnt hear. I saw the beatiful blonde girl from red hook waiting in line at the conssesion stand. Brock walked over to her. I was going to ask Brock ware Zack was so i walked over.
Brock was hitting on the girl.
Brock "So whats your name?"
Girl "im Cardnial"
Brock"well im-"
Cardnial "i know who you are and im really not interesting."
Brock "bitch" He slapped the drink out of Cardnial's hand.
"HEY" i heard a yell.
The red hook quarterback Jacob and Brandon came over.
"Get out of here" Jacob spat in Brock's face. Brock had both of them by at least 5 inches and a lot of muscle.
Brock "who's gunna make me?"
Jacob "who do you think idiot" i had to giggle at that. Brock pushed Jacob. When Jacob veered back to attack Adam jumped out of no ware and grabbed Jacob.
Adam "Dont, he's not worth it" Jacob put his arm back. "come on lets go"
Zack brushed past me he called to Adam
Zack "The faggots dont want to fight" The red hook kids just walked away. That was upsetting but i found Zack. Of coarse he had to go home and take a shower. Why didnt i think of that. Brock and Zack slapped hands. And begain to walk away. They walked to the back of the bleechers and some other guys and Ashley came over. I followed.
"Uuuh Zack" I asked. He was talking with Brock about the game he didnt hear me. I wiggled through the crowed. Aschley scoffed. I tugged on his arm. He wripped away from me.
"Whats wrong?" i asked
Zack "bets over"
"what do you mean"
"i only had to date you till home coming, it was just a initiation prank"
All the guys broke out laughing. Ashley exhaled
Ashley "thank god"
"YOur liying!" i screamed. Tears ran down my face. I grabbed his hand.
Zack "get off of me" He wripped his hand away and pushed me against the fence. I smashed into it and bounced off. Brock stuck out his foot and tripped me. I fell into a pile of mud. The rain hitting my body. Ashley looked down at me. She kicked. Her foot hit my face. Zack took a kick. A few other guys too. I tried to stand but they pushed me back again. My face was bleeding. Ashley grabbed me by the hair. Hissing in my ear as she dragged me
"Like you could ever have anybody on this earth actually love you, you stupid ugly bitch." She threw my face down and stomped on me. I rolled over onto my back. Ashley grabbed my hair and pulled so i sat up.
At that moment somebody jumped down from the top of the stands and landed in our group. I couldnt see the face. Just a red hook jersey. Number 17. Ashely let go of me. A guy fell on the ground then another. Brock went at Adam. Brock swong. Adam dodged and slammed him in the face three times and Brock fell on his back. A guy grabbed Adam by the back. Adam flipped him over his back. Brock slammed Adam with his sholder and they both went down. Adam jumped up swung but took a punch in the face. He wripped free from Brock. Zack punched and hit Adam in the nose. Adam ignored it and punched Zack knocking him out. Brock grabbed Adam and slammed him on the ground. Asheley came over and kicked him in the face. Just then the whole red hook team stormed at us and the Macedon people ran. Except for me.
Most the red hook kids chased Brock and Zack. Cardnial stayed she was tending to Adam.
Adam "im fine im fine." He stood up and walked over to me. He stuck out his hand and i grabbed it. He lifted me up.
Adam "is their some place ware i can wash all this off" He motioned to his muddy face. I nodded. I walked towards the school. Adam and Cardnial followed. But Adam told Cardnial to go back.
Adam"Are you okay?"
I nodded "happens more then you think"
Adam "really, why?, thats terrible" I shrugged. We got to the bath room. I went in the girls and Adam followed. It was a one person bath room. I put on the water and motioned to him.
"you can go first" He smiled and laughed a little
Adam "no your going to"
I washed my hands and my face. Just a small cut on my forhead. I sat on the tolit as he washed his face.
Adam "theres really no reson they mess with you "
"the obvius ,im weird, im ugly"
Adam smiled "your not ugly"
"yeah yeah i am"
Adam "you might be weird i cant speak for that personaly i think its a good thing, but your definitly not ugly" I blushed. He walked up to me.
Adam "come on" he out stretched his hand "your under my protection now." I smiled he lead me out of the school and up to his section of the bleechers. All his friends including Cardnial was their. He lead me up to the top row.
Adam "okay everybody listen up, this is Angel and she is under our protection" They all cheered. Brandon yealled
"get some sloth!" I spoke to Adam
"i dont and really dont want to know what that means"
Adam "yeah you dont" The red hook kids cheered and yealled and were all actually super nice. I was standing next to Adam and on the other side Cardnial who didnt talk to me. Half time came and went and when we all got back it was so cold we we sat down. Cardnial had a blanket and Adam spread it over us three. I was in the middle. Adam snuggled over to me and grabbed my arm. Around the third corner and put his head under the blanket so i did too.
Adam "you want to go some place else"
"totally"
We waded through the crowds and to a hill ware nobody was on. The rain had stopped. We lied down looking over the game. He put his hands behind his head. He asked a lot of queastions and eventually got most my life story out of me.
"what about you?"
Adam "what about me?"
"your Adam all star football player, guy with long hair and painted nails"
Adam "that basicly describes me"
"what about Cardnial, is she your " I trialed off.
Adam "we used to be together but we are taking a break, still friends tho"
"okay okay" I said nodding.
Adam"why do you cut your wristes?"
I shook my head "you know why"
Adam "i dont"
"because they hate me"
Adam "you do it because of them?"
"no i do it because of me"
He grabbed my hands "Angel accept your self, your beatiful"
i pulled down my sleeves revealling my full arms every inch cut and sliced.
"how is this beatiful?!"
I got up crying again.
Adam "Angel dont"
"no i cant im sorry Adam," I ran away to the parking lot. He jogged besides me trying to talk to me asking me what was wrong what he said. I cried and got into my car. I turned it on and pulled out Adam was still following me. I pulled out and drove. Adam sprinted in the street he was keeping up until i got onto a main rode then i lost him.
Chapter 5
I druged throug a few weeks at school. Just like Zack and Adam never happend. Why had i run out on Adam. I was emotinal. I was hurt from Zack. I was to unstable to do some thing. My arms hardly bleed anymore so i moved to the legs.
Untill one day at school. The art students from red hook came to Macedon for a art show. Adam was among them. It just so happens i was in the art room.
"Whats up" He said to me leaning against some shelves as i worked.
"your an art student?"
Adam "totally, what are you drawing?"
"its an Angel"
Adam "your good."
i looked up at him. His brown hair was absolutly beatiful hanging over his face. He wore black jeans and shoes with a v neck and black jacket.
"thank you, Adam im sorry for being a bitch"
Adam "dont worry about it i can be pretty bitchy too" I giggled.
Adam "so would you please do me the honor of giving me your phone number. I did. I gave him my phone number. We spent the rest of the school day looking at art. His sucked. Plus we made out in a broom closet.
I stopped cutting. At least mostly. I met up with Adam every few days. I uselly went down to him because he didnt have a car. I met most of his friends and they became my friends too. I remember the first time he showed me off.
They had just finished a football game. Witch they won btw. Adam ran off the feild with his whole school watching. I was dressed in all black. I walked out onto the track. He picked me up and kissed me. The whole crowed erupted. As the team ran by Brandon gave me a high five. Jacob said hey to me. This is how life was supposed to be.
Chapter 6
It was champion ship week. Or semi champion ship week. The Raiders were undefeated and all ready in the championship. The Trojans were in the semi championship. The trojans who were 11-1. Were facing Annexbergue at 9-3. Annexbergue was called the lightning. They had bright yellow and pink jerseys compared to Macedon's black and orange ones.
The red hook kids. And me an honerery red hook kid watched intently. We were scouting them i also hung out at some of the trojans practices watching them. Then telling Adam what they did. The lightning was fast and verygood passers. Their QB was hurt the whole season and now he was back. Darko was his name. Taller then Brock and lean and mean. Lightning had the ball first. Darko hiked it rolled out faked and pass and kept the ball. He ran 20 yards before he went out of bounds.
Next play Darko faked a hand off that Brock fell for then threw it long. Past Zack and to his player who fell out of bounds at the 10. Next play. Darko hiked it he rolled out and ran he juked and got past Brock. He sprinted at he line and siff armed Zack in for the touchdown. 7-0 lightning.
Trojens ball. Zack hiked it he faked a hand off to Brock and ran back. He whipped the ball to his reciver. Darko jumped up and snagged it with one hand. He ran spun and in for a TD. 14-0 Lightning. Darko was unstoppable. Zack passed to Brock who trucked a few lightning players to get a ten yard touchdown. 14-7. Then Darko drove down the feild. He got to the 15. When he ran a boot play. He ran out nobody was open. So he ran out. He cut in past Zack right into Brock. Brock grabbed Darko. He lifted jumped and twisted. Slambing Darko down on the feild. Darko yealled. Brock screamed down at Darko.
Darko clutched his sholder and they brought him off in a stretcher. He had fumbled the ball so it was Trojen ball. They drove down the feild and tied it up. That was the end of the first. In the second quarter the Trojens scored three times. 35-14 Macedon. At half time i went to get a hot dog. Adam was throwing a ball with Jacob so i went alone.
"wait" I heard a voice. It was Cardnial "ill go with you" Oh no another pretty mean blonde girl. She's going to reck everything. As we were walking she asked me questions.
Cardnial "so how do you feel about Adam"
"i i i like him"
Cardnial "do you really like him or are you just playing around"
"i mean im "
Cardnial "jesus why are u so nervous its not like im going to hit you"
"im sorry"
Cardnail "look i know you might be scared of me or something, but i just want whats best for Adam, i guess what im trying to say is im okay with you two being together, not like you need my approvel but if you felt some kind of weirdness just know im okay with it"
So Cardnial was actually pretty cool. But back to football. The ending score was Annexburgue 14 to Macedon 69. It wasnt even close. And Adam didnt really learn a lot. After the game we all went out to dinner.
When we were leaving we saw Ashley wispering into Zack's ear. They were looking at us. We went to a nice restuarant witch Cardnial who was super rich payed for all of us. We ate to our hearts delight. Adam held my hand the whole time.
The night before the championship game. The game was going to be at Macedon. Because they had one more win the Red Hook. Trojens 15-1. Raiders 14-0. Plus the Trojens had scored more points.
Adam was out side my house. I got in my car and left when my dad stumbled out. He yealled
"DONT YOU RAPE MY DAUGHTER" Adam looked at me
"He's drunk"
Adam "ah nice to meet you Mr.Walker." I drove off. We went to the park. At the park Brock and Zack were waiting. I wanted to leave but Adam wouldnt let me. We walked out and past them. They ran up behind us. Brock shoved Adam.
Brock "faggot" Adam just shook his head.
Zack grabbed my wrist
Zack "gimmi some bi-" Like lightning Adam punch Zack in the face. Zack dropped. Brock tackled Adam. Adam dragged him self out and they both stood up. Brock punched Adam blocked and elbowed Brock in the face twice. Brock punched and hit Adam in the stomach. Adam was lifted up in the air. But he stayed in his face. He hit right left right. All three in Brock's face and Brock fell. They left.
We went to my tree with my razer blades that i handt used in monthes. In that tree me and Adam made out. He put his hands up my shirt and i bite his neck. It was great. At the end of the night he spoke before he got picked up. In the tree entagled in each other.
"Angel i love you"
I cried and sobbed out "i love you too."
Chapter 7
I was in Red Hook. Adam and me had slept on the game feild last night. It was time for him to go get ready so i kissed him good by. I looked into his deep brown eyes and said the words agian.
"i love you"
Adam "love you too"
Adam jogged off and i got in my car and drove back to my house. I made a play list for Adam. Yeah i know its cliche but it was our kind of thing. I was downloading it and listening to music for like an hour in my room. When i got it i put the ipod in my pocket and looked in the mirror. Yeah i was pretty. I wore black jeans blue shoes. A grey shirt and black jacket. My skin was white but not ghostly white like it used to be. My scars were fading and i hadnt died my hair in a while. So it was in the middle of golden blonde and black witch was a blondeish whitesh thing.
I also put on a white scarf as it was getting pretty cold out. I ran down stairs. Past my dad who was passed out and into the garge. And i saw it. The car Chad had bought me. It was smashed. The wind sheild was broken. All the sides were dent up. THe seats were wripped up the tires were slashed. I screamed and ran up stairs. I ripped open a box and took out a little extreamly sharp knife i used to cut with on special occasions. I slashed up my arm and then licked the blood. Ashley was going to pay.
I ran the mile to the school the game had allready started. Knife in my pocket. The score was tied up 7-7 and it was half time. I decided to watch the game. I leaned up against the fence. Half time begain with the Trojans ball. They ran it up the middle with Brock almost every play and scored. 14-7.
Jacob dropped back. Brock blitzed and Brandon jumped at him. They smashed and both of them went down. Jacob launched the ball. Adam was running past everybody else he caught the ball and ran it all the way for the touchdown. 14-14. Brock smashed the ground.
Zack threw a touchdown and Jacob kicked a feildgoal to end the quarter. Trojans-21 Raiders-17. The fourth quarter begain. Brock and Zack lead a massive drive down to the one yard line. They took up alot of time but now it was 4th down on the one. They gave it to Brock right up the middle. He ran stright into Brandon who stopped him. Jacob went around Brock's legs and Adam smashed him and Brock tumbled down. The Raiders all screamed in joy.
They had 2 minutes to score. They drove. But durning it I saw Ashley. I walked up to her and got right in her face.
"How dare you mess with my car"
Ashley "how dare i?" she laughed. I drew my knife.
Ashley "i didnt trash your car, but i do have something to show you, she took out her phone. Look what i found. It was a video of Adam kissing Cardnial. Passonite long kissing. I died. In that moment i finally gave up and died in side. That was the last straw. I ran away ashley and her friends fallowed i climbed up a rock and they surrounded me. I looked back to the football game.
The clock had run out but they were still going. Jacob dropped back. Brock blitzed Brandon rammed him. Brock kicked and slammed Brandon's knee. Brandon fell to the ground in pain. Brock ran at Jacob. Jacob spun and threw the ball. Adam ran and jumped he caught the ball and rammed into Zack flattening him. I held the knife to my throat.
Adam sprinted into the end zone. The raiders won. Woubtey fucking do. Cardnial ran out onto the feild. She grabbed Adam. He had the biggest smile in the world on his fucking face. But Cardnial pointed to me. Adam looked. He dropped his helmate and sprinted to me.
"ANGEL!" He screamed. Adam jumped the fence and bolted to me. He ran up and started to climb.
"dont" I said holding the knife to my neck.
Adam "Angel why?"
"she showed me the video" I motined to Ashley.
Adam looked at Ashley. She shook his head. "that was from last season"
"it doesnt matter im still damegaed goods, ill always be the ugly little slut, why would you ever love me when you have a girl like Cardnial or Ashley, why would anybody ever want me" I ripped the knife across my neck. Blood poured out and i fainted to the ground.
Adam scrambled up and held me up. He looked down at me. His eyes were big and shaking.
"No" He wisperd "Angel no" Blood poured out of my neck, His tears mixed with my blood. I wispered.
"im so sorry Adam" Then everything went black.
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