Aaj achanak aasu behne lge is raat ko, smjhi nhi payi ek pal k liye ki kyu.fir khayal aaya unka jinko dil se hmne chaha..bahut pyar tha dil me,lekin kismat me tha kuch aisa ki hm byan v krte to sbse chhip k..ek v aisa insan nhi tha jisse hm bta skte unke alawa ki mere pas v dil h jo kisi pe mrta h kisi ko behadd chahta h. Ye baatein v unse hi khni pdti..waise shuru to unhone ne kiya tha is khusnume safar ko lekin hme kya pta tha ki hm jaise insan ka dil v dhadak skta h..fir ho gyi shuraat bepanah mohabbt ki..hr chij ka ehsas hua unse,yha tk ki ek kiss ka v,jo bchpan me shyd maa papa se mila ho but bde ho Jane pe kaun puchhta h,sbko lgta h ki ab bde ho gye h pyar ki kya jarurat h ,jimmedari nibhaye pdhe likhr..shyd isiliye jarurt hoti h ek sathi ki ek partenr ki jo ehsas kraye ki aaj v hm bche h jisko uski duniya pyar krti h..ehsaas to ho gya pyar v ho gya lekin  hme kya pta tha ki bhagwan hme ye sari chije bs seekhane k liye bheje the us insan ko..khte hue ro kr aakhe v thk ja rhi,lekin kya kre aasu roke nhi rukte..aise kisse bahut hote h jaha do log rhte h koi teesra aata h lekin ye kissa kuch aisa tha jisme pdhne walo k liye to chije intersting ho skti h lekin jis Insan pe ye beeti h wo kisi se kh v nhi skta isliye likh k mn halka kr rha..aaj mai yhi sochne me lg gyi ki mai thi kya unki jindagi me,kya ehmiyat thi meri,kya mai unki patni thi,kya mai unki beloved thi,kya mai unki dost thi,qki 5 saalo me hme nhi samjh aaya ki mai kya thi,in 5 saalo me bahut si uljhano me uljhi thi..asal me aaj mujhe aisa lgta h,meri aatma tadap k kh rhi ki tum unki dost thi jisse wo hr baat btate the,'he loves you very much but as a friend' lekin fir aatma chup hojati mere ek sawal pe ki fir kyu aaye the mere karib..fir aatma khti ki tumne to Sadhguru ko pdha h n,unhone to kaha h ki ek insan ka love partenr and sex partenr alg alg ho skta h..tb mai khud is nishkarsh pe aati hu ki mai unki dost thi jisse wo sb kuch share krte, Seekhate ,help krte the aur shyd sex partner v thi,wo v pura nhi.qki aajtak literally jo sex hota h  aisa kuch nhi hua..bus normal kiss etc.... unhone to aajtak mujhe gale v nhi lgaya,aur ye khte hue mere aakho se aasu ki dhara bh rhi,unhone kya kisi ne nhi lgaya..ek apnapan ka ehsaas hota h,puri duniya hug day mnati h aur mere jaise kuchh log aise rote h ki jo insan khta h ki pyar krta wo hi aajtak gale nhi lgaya ..ek dost ko v nhi lgaya aur na hi ek entertainment partner ko..agr aaj dil ki baat kahu jis chij k liye tadap gyi mai aaj tk wo ye ki unhone mujhe wo pyar nhi diya jo hr ldki chahti h,..pahle to ye lgta tha ki shyd isliye qki ye sb faltu lgta h unko ya fir mujhe padhai se disturb nhi krna chahte..lekin reason is totally different .unhone hmne chhua jarur lekin wo smjh k nhi jo mai smjhti thi..unhone pyar kiya but as a friend..jiske sath couple ka rishta nibhana tha,jiske kiye shayriya likhte aur raat me mujhe sunate ye kh j ki btao kaisa h,puchhne pe khte tumhare liye .kyu krte aisa..kya mai us kayak nhi hupichhle do saalo me ehsaas hua ek akela insan k sath uske aasu hote h uski aahe hoti h. Uske drd hote h..ya mai aisi ldki nhi hu jise pyar kity jaye..aur dil tutne pe n dosto dil me sch me drd hota h..itna sb btane aur aasu bahane k baad thoda sa mn halka lg rha..kahi aisa to nhi lgta n aapko ki mainoyart deserve nhi krti ,aisa nhi h mujhe v chahiye tha aapka pyar,mujhe v m. Krta tha ki aap mujhse apna pyar maan k pyar kre. Bhgwan ne sbko adhikar diya h pyar paane ka..aaj ye mai jarur kahungi..aap jo mere se khte the ki tum meri ye ho wo ho wo bs khte hi the aap us tarike se pyar nhi kiye..chhod isliye nhi rhe the qki member jo thi..nhi to kb ka chhod chuke hote