Romance

Shit ! I fell in love again(and again & again..& again)

The subtle human nature of falling in and out of love, but still not giving up.

Apr 19, 2012  |   4 min read

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Shit ! I fell in love again(and again & again..& again)
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What is the right age to fall in love? Or how many times can one fall in love? Are there any laws applicable to falling in love? Ridhi was 16... no 15... hmmm 12... I guess 10... Na... 8 years old, when she fell in love (for the first time). Her first love was that cute little boy in his class sitting next to the window, who seemed to be eternally silent.

She always wished if someday her Fairy Godmother would come and grant her wish of sitting beside him, and one fine day the magic happened. The class teacher (not God fairy), granted her wish. She could never forget those endless chit-chatting in between classes, sharing the lunch box, and fights which never lasted more than an hour. She was so excited. Oh! She had a boyfriend now. But all good things came to an end. Her father was transferred to another city and she had to end her love story (or so she thought). She was heart broken but she always believed that one day, he will find her (but she didn't leave a shoe behind, so he couldn't)

She was 12 and was not interested in boyfriends anymore. But one fine day, she noticed that the tall guy from the next section was looking at her. She tried to ignore him, but alas! By then she had been hit by cupid`s arrow already. Shit! She was smiling to herself again but she knew last time she was just a kid and this time she is a "grown up kid". But, within a year she realised she has responsibilities on her head like homework, tutions, etc. So she sacrificed her love for the education system. But she was haunted by the memories of those sweet talks, sharing of notes, passing
chits and all such memories. And again she decided she will "never - ever" fall in love.

But Alas! One fine day she reached that age of mandatory romance according to the parameters of Bollywood. How could she breach the laws of the holy Bollywood? She was sweet "16" (remember all those "sola baras ki bali umar" kinda songs). She had to fall in love again. But this time it was serious, and it was "true love". That athletic, wannabee, girl's most wanted, school captain stole her heart. They shared those beautiful moments in love for 2 years. She was happy but they had to part their ways one day. School days were over and they went to different colleges. Slowly she realised those feelings have faded, but those memories remained. She fell out of love but she was happy that she had fallen in love. It was a wonderful feeling.

It was her first year in college. It was the month of December when she was enjoying her tea and suddenly she noticed "him". He was just so lost in his world, not interested in anyone. She just wanted to look at him and she was sure he will never look back. For next few days she made sure she was always in the canteen at that time of the day but never expected he will even notice. But one day a friend told her that "he" wants to meet her. She was scared. They met for the first time and she felt as if her heart had just skipped a beat. It was beautiful. They were so happy together. They had so much to share with each other even when they were silent. With each passing day, she realised with him that she can just fall in love, every day.

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was raining heavily, they were in the middle of the road and he kissed her for the first time. She was speechless. She felt as if time had stopped at that moment. She knew she wanted to be with him forever.

Years passed by but she still loved him the way she did on the first day, or so she thought. she was insanely in love with him and she simply loved it. It was a beautiful feeling.

But she could sense that things were changing. She could not see that spark in his eyes but she ignored those thoughts. It was all too bitter to accept.

But she couldn't hold on to things for longer. This relationship was slipping away from her hand like sand but she just didn't want to let go.

They switched to different cities and she realised slowly that she wasn't there in his life any more. So she broke completely.

For some days all those sad songs made sense. There was something she was holding on to, but one day she decided she will let go. She was hurt but slowly realised it is human to fall out of love and he did that only.

That day she decided she will never give up on love. It's a wonderful feeling and no one should miss it.

One day she will just fall in love again.

In our life, we can have many love stories. It's not wrong. It's a part of human nature. Just don't restrict yourselves, fall in love and enjoy it. Do not draw boundaries to your feelings. Love truely and deeply. You may get hurt or may fall out of it but that is the only way you would have lived life.

Love is a beautiful feeling. Don't miss it. Find it

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Oberon

Aug 14, 2024

????nice

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Denise Arnault

May 22, 2024

Life is Good. Love is worth it. Enjoyed this.

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Ares

Mar 1, 2024

I really loved it!

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Deepti Atri

Apr 6, 2023

Oh I really lived how honest and true this is. Why do we hold On to the sadness oh heartbreaks and not the lovely feeling of being in love. Thankew for opening our eyes. Really uplifting!

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