It all started when I started sleeping alone. I felt really scared to sleep so. To reduce my scared feelings, I initially started to hug my pillow (I used to think pillow is a living being). Then after few days, I started masturbating and I continued it daily. But suddenly one night my dad came inside my room. It was just miss I was about to start doing masturbation. So from the next day, I started locking the door of my room. But my dad started doubting me and insisted not to lock the door. As I was about to attend my higher secondary school exams, I was asked not leave my room. So I became completely isolated. When my dad went out of home, I became happy as I could lock my room saying my mom that I need to have complete silence.
Initially I masturbated once in a day. Then as I began to feel too lonely, I started doing it more than once in a day. I didn't eat well, sleep well for several days and so I became a lazy person and couldn't concentrate in any activities. But during that time I thought it was just because of masturbation. And so I thought of leaving it. It was really difficult for me to get rid of it. I asked my parents to buy me a mobile for educational purposes. They, too, bought me a mobile. Initially I used it for educational purposes and also to get rid of masturbation habit. Then I started using it to chat with my friends. (None of girls used to reply me)
Suddenly one day I got a message from an unknown girl. (She herself told me that she was a girl) I became really happy because of it. She texted me that she would love me if I scored good marks in upcomingexams. I said "Yaa!! Of course I'll do it for you." But I was unable to concentrate in studies as I was thinking who it would be.
Soon my exams came. I couldn't do well in my exams. But still I didn't worry for it because I was remained busy chatting with unknown people. All of a sudden, our state educational board announced the day of the publication of results. It gave me a massive shock. I became more and more tensed. I was only hoping for a miracle to happen but unfortunately it didn't take place. I know that this result won't convince my parents as well as that girl (whom I chatted earlier with). So I decided to finish of my life. But my family saved me from my suicide attempt.
Later I came to know that the girl who chatted with me wasn't a girl actually. It was a fake account. My dad had asked my friends to make me study well. So one of my friends created a fake account and has chatted with me due to my father's approach. Then I started interacting with my parents and friends directly and not by phone. Now I have learned to enjoy my life.
The Present: All these are stated by me in a book which I released a month before. Yaa, I'm a psychological consultant by now. I insist all the parents, who approach me, to spend their time with their children and not to isolate their children for any reason.
Initially I masturbated once in a day. Then as I began to feel too lonely, I started doing it more than once in a day. I didn't eat well, sleep well for several days and so I became a lazy person and couldn't concentrate in any activities. But during that time I thought it was just because of masturbation. And so I thought of leaving it. It was really difficult for me to get rid of it. I asked my parents to buy me a mobile for educational purposes. They, too, bought me a mobile. Initially I used it for educational purposes and also to get rid of masturbation habit. Then I started using it to chat with my friends. (None of girls used to reply me)
Suddenly one day I got a message from an unknown girl. (She herself told me that she was a girl) I became really happy because of it. She texted me that she would love me if I scored good marks in upcomingexams. I said "Yaa!! Of course I'll do it for you." But I was unable to concentrate in studies as I was thinking who it would be.
Soon my exams came. I couldn't do well in my exams. But still I didn't worry for it because I was remained busy chatting with unknown people. All of a sudden, our state educational board announced the day of the publication of results. It gave me a massive shock. I became more and more tensed. I was only hoping for a miracle to happen but unfortunately it didn't take place. I know that this result won't convince my parents as well as that girl (whom I chatted earlier with). So I decided to finish of my life. But my family saved me from my suicide attempt.
Later I came to know that the girl who chatted with me wasn't a girl actually. It was a fake account. My dad had asked my friends to make me study well. So one of my friends created a fake account and has chatted with me due to my father's approach. Then I started interacting with my parents and friends directly and not by phone. Now I have learned to enjoy my life.
The Present: All these are stated by me in a book which I released a month before. Yaa, I'm a psychological consultant by now. I insist all the parents, who approach me, to spend their time with their children and not to isolate their children for any reason.
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