People like to ask questions but don't like when you answer honestly. Like "How are you? '' and I replied Oh, it's been tough recently. They all look at me weirdly like, you asked so why am I the weird one for answering? People also don't like when you just reply with an I'm fine or it's been good cause they know you're lying. Pick a side you can't tell me to answer honestly and not tell the truth simultaneously. That's why I prefer my games, they are my life. I could never live in a world without my games. Or at least that's what I thought. When I died I guess I realized that in some worlds I can live without them. As for how I died, my games killed me. So far I have died a total of twelve times or was the last one thirteen. I lost track I guess. God thought I was wasting my life so he made me live my games. I can't be mad. I always say my games are my life, but now they are. I've played a bunch of my games already but there is one that I'm looking forward to, Minecraft. I've always thought about it. What would happen? Would I have fun and build, would I be able to use totems or would they be useless? I'm so excited about Minecraft I can't wait till I finally get to play it. The one I'm in right now isn't that fun, it's a little boring when you're inside, and you also can't skip the storyline like I normally do. I can't wait to die and move on. The good thing is I do know the next game, the next one is Roblox. I think I will be able to play any one of the games in it that I want but I think I'll only be able to play one, I don't actually know how that one will work either. It's fine though we'll figure it out together. I just gotta get past this boss and then I'll get the treasure or he'll kill me and I won't have to worry about this anymore. God I hope I die at this boss battle the next one is ice this one of fire will be a quick death ice will be painful. Ok his next move is, wait why does he have a club it's supposed to be a sword. Well, I'm dead. Sitting up after death always sucks. Ugh, I'm so light-headed, where am I now? Roblox, natural disasters. This will be fun. The first one is always an easier one. Looks like I'm by myself. It'll help when I have to get to secluded places. Great it's raining so that's a flood gotta get up high it's the rocket map so I can get really high up. Climbing this is harder than I thought. Gotta give props to the Roblox characters; they are definitely strong. K, now I wait for it to end. Great so there is no time in-between them. It's clear and the water is normal so that eliminates quite a few. Oh, it's fire that's really easy just gotta stay on the dirt away from buildings, easy peasy. K that ended quicker than normal rain again, maybe a sandstorm, maybe not, either way, gotta get inside. That building looks like it'll work. Shiitake mushrooms. It's acid rain. This is not the right building, gotta make a run for it quickly to the skyscraper. Under this tree and under that tree and in the building. I took damage and it hurt but I'm still alive. This is actually a lot of fun. Next one oh it's just a tornado. I'll jump into it. This is making me sick, God I'm glad that's over. K now, black hole. What the duck, that's not one of them will I even be safe this far away? I don't think I'm far eno. Another headache just as it was getting fun too. I don't even want to open my eyes. I don't know what game is next. I haven't checked yet. Now I wonder if it will let me move on even without dieing if I just don't open my eyes. I wonder what game I'm in though God I'm too impatient for this shit. Oh, I don't remember these graphics. Is this . . . Mario Paper Kingdom? This is so trippy. I hate this, maybe I should just jump into the water. No, it won't count. I have to accidentally die. Screw you guys for this, I hate people. I hate God. Well, we might as well try at least to have some fun. Well, the toads are cute. I wanna just hug them. Maybe I can. I'm gonna pretend I didn't kill him, it was Bouser, I swear. Well, now I feel like I am Bouser. Whatever, let's save all the people I already killed. Wait, would Bouser be my friend if I showed him what I did? Let's find out. Ugh, I should have seen that coming. Well now I'm, I'm in Minecraft!�! What do the settings look like? My normal settings. That's awesome I'm never gonna die, let's build a house first, and speed run this game. Great upgrade the tools. Why did I just take damage? Duck my hunger, I need food, I have rotten flesh, raw chicken, raw mutton, and one single potato. I'll eat the rotten flesh. Now I just need to start a farm and fast, my hungers going down again. Damn this is no joke when you're playing in the game. Running away from zombies and creepers. Holding everything in my inventory. God Minecraft players are really ducking strong and have like, no pain receptors. Ok now we just gotta wait for the potatoes to grow. Wow this is sooo much fun. Why do they take so long? I'm gonna be dead by the time they grow. Scratch that I'm dead already. Duck why does this feel . . . So . . . Familiar. The death scream? I starved to death, after everything I did, and accomplished. My house, and my armor, and, and I don't understand how, after working so hard, I die of starvation. There's another game. What the duck, where am I? Who are you? What do you want with me? You're the gods. Why do I feel so . . . Faint all of a sudden? The blue sky, and what am I on? Clouds, right I just met the gods. They made me live through my games. They showed me what in my world I was missing. I was missing my will, and want to live. I had everything I needed: money, food, entertainment, everything. The reason I lived through my beloved games, to show me that even if no one else thinks it is, My life was an achievement. I died of starvation after I worked so hard to get to where I am. Ring a bell. He made me die the same way I did in real life, in my game. I had to lose what I saw was an achievement, to understand what the real achievement is. My life was an achievement, not the things I did in my life. I got to live and survive without the struggle of death at my door, and me having to ignore them. I got the achievement some never did and I starved myself, the gods just wanted me to see that before I passed on, before I lived my next life, my next life as a butler to the duke and duchess. Is it an achievement to be a simple butler? No. But is it an achievement to have a second life, one where I will remember everything from my past? Definitely. I can't wait to start another life. One I will cherish even if all I do is give people food. Because I understand what it means to live now, and I want to. I want to have fun and eat without worry. I will love my next life, even if I don't get to live very long.

Watching him have a ball was worth the pain he suffered at the end every time, and the magic it took us to do it. We all worked together on this but for all different reasons, mine was because every new god must live through twenty lives before they are given the view of the proper worlds. This was the best way to do that, make them see what life is really about. The rest want to punish him for wasting his life, even though he's supposed to be the next god. I'm the god of earth, the world this man is from. The others are Mehmes, the god of Themis, another life bearing planet. Then there are the twin gods, Teris and Taris, they are the gods over the twin life bering worlds names after them Tamis and Tarmis. Then of course the last and most irritating god of them all, the god of the fire planet that somehow has life, Flango.

"I don't see what you guys see, he's just some stupid human he'll never be a god."

"That's what you said about Hisuse, and you were wrong." The twins have always liked me and I never really understood why, but I'm not complaining.

"Ya remember when we made him the king in that one life and he did better than you, you called him even though he was just loved more than you were."

"Ya you were probably jealous." Memes never really talked much, but he's never liked any of us fighting, so if there's a chance at him stopping us he'll talk. I guess I never really thought much about my past lives, but they're all just like his, except he's not going to be the king, he's going to serve the king, and take control behind the scenes. I guess it doesn't matter much, but he's also already met all of us. All of us but Mehmes.

"So who's gonna tell him he's a god after he serves as the butler, seeing how he's about to die because he sucks at being a person."

"God don't you ever shut up, Flango."

"Ya you're so annoying, Flango."

I guess it's not surprising the twins have the same thoughts, but I feel kinda bad that they always team up against him. Maybe it's better that way. If they agreed, he'd never let anyone live it down. I wish he would give the new gods a chance. I guess he's just used to being let down, it's been a while since a human has passed the test, no matter which world we take from, hopefully he passes. So far he's made it through the first sixteen lifes without fail, but he still has four more to go, including this one. He's made it farther than most, but after losing the other six gods, I don't really blame Flango for pushing them all away.

"You all suck, I'm done watching this moron, I'm going back to my world."

"Hang on Flango, I'll go with you, I was hoping we could talk."

"I guess, but don't slow me down."

"Don't worry, I won't." As much as I don't want to leave him, I need to talk to Flango about us. I know he doesn't want the others to know, but maybe it's time, I mean we've known the twins for over three centuries now. After such a long journey, I always love seeing his world, even though it's hot, it's very beautiful.

"So Flango, I know we haven't . . ."

"Stop talking" I guess he's always been like this, preferred cuddling over talking, I guess this is fine, just for a moment.

I've lived in this life for five years now, I finally get to explore the world. In this world, Kids arent allowed to go to school until the age of five, so the only information I have about this world is what I've read in the books my father owns. But now I'll be able to go to the library, and the school that I'm going to has a massive library. I can't wait to learn about this world. So far, I believe it's just earth, but at a different point in time, I just don't know what time yet. It's not like I could just ask either, all I know is that they call it year 128 but that's based on the last war they had. Every war resets that timer. I have learned that my family has served the royal family for millions of years, or at least that's what my family says all the time. The only thing i've learned so far, that's definitely true, is the fact that it's the medieval times, when kings and queens rule, what's different from what we always thought? They let women rule as if they were kings, even if they have no husband, they don't care who's born first, the kids will have to prove that they can be the king. Then there my family were allowed to act as if we are their equals, we can even date them if we want, but we can't change the fact that they are the ruling face. I could even marry the crown prince if I wanted. I could also marry the princess but that wouldn't give me the power I want. All I have to do is make sure the crown prince falls for me. We have met three times already. I'll be his butler while we're at the royal school, even though we're both five. I can't wait to learn more and more.

As time passes, I've gotten to know more about the prince, we're stuck together twenty four seven, even when he's bathing I have to be there. We're both sixteen now, and well his sister kind of ran away, but it doesn't matter much, she's happy. We've been living together for eleven years and I think I've started falling for him because of it. He gets crowned king in two years, then he will choose who he wants to marry, that's when I won't be needed in the bath house with him, his wife will be the one in the bathhouse with him. Personally, he doesn't seem interested in anyone, so I don't know who he'll choose. Maybe he'll let his father choose. What is he doing now? Why is he always staring at me like that? Sometimes I wish I could talk to him, tell him my thoughts. If only I wasn't cursed by the gods, It kinda feels weird to say that. Having met them, I know it's not their fault, but my mothers, my mothers in every life, but when I finally get out of this life . . . I might get a voice.

"Hay, are you alright, Sako? You're blacking out again." I can't believe he's so close now, god all I can do is nod. If only the words would form in my throat, so I could tell him my thoughts, so I could finally be heard, instead of just seen.

"You're so red now . . . Its . . . kinda cute." His hands are so warm on my cheek and he's so close to me, is it alright to feel like this, and not be able to tell him. Is it ok to not be able to communicate my feelings with the person closest to me. We really need a way to communicate better. But, looking back at him, his eyes seem to scan my face, and I know what he wants, and I want the same. I didn't know someone's lips could be so soft, although I've never felt the need to kiss anyone before. All I wanna do is stay in his arms forever. Just two years until he chooses a wife, I really hope he doesn't change his mind.

"I love you." The words I've never heard before, the words I have dreaded for years, the words I myself, now love. I just wish I could say it back, but all I can do is smile at him.

My seventeenth birthday is coming up, but I don't think anyone really knows that, more importantly the prince's birthday, the same day as mine, and his coronation. I've learned everything I need to know about this world now. I was right about it being earth, but I believe it's actually in the future. The world moved back, because in my time, there was only one great plague, but now, there have been three. Only two of which I know, one was kept on record, but I can't get any more info than that on it. I've been meaning to go to the forbidden library to see if there are texts in there about it, or maybe the archives have something on it. I'll have to check. First, getting down there.

It took two days, but finally I got away and into the forbidden library. Now I'm looking for a book on the disease that causes the second or third famine, and of course I need to find how it started, so I can stop it from happening again. Most of the books in this library are here because they describe death and explain how to get rid of it, but some can be learning points. There are two books on the second, which was the one I was in at first, the one I died during. But there's only one book on the third, which is unknown to me. It talks about a disease that kills half the world. One so deadly, If you got it you would die in an hour, to three days guaranteed. Not one person survived, no one but one kid. They thought the kid was one of gods and was then taken to a physician, where his blood was drawn, but his blood was not blood of a god or a human, but that of a demon. How could such a child exist and survive, that's when they started worshiping the demon, and they noticed doing that actually gave them more life, then death, but made then suffer more than those who still worshiped the gods, for the god would spare their lives if faced with death or pain, but satan would make them suffer through it just to die three days later anyway. I guess they just wanted to forget this pain, that's why it's down here. I got what I wanted, so I'm just gonna go back up. Maybe someone will remember now it's my birthday, or maybe they will only see the prince.

He's finally 17, and it seems as though he's fallen in love for once in his 20 lifes. It was bound to happen, I just hope he doesn't take the loss too hard, for he still has four more lives to live. Too bad he has no one but the prince by his side now, maybe we can help him by keeping the prince with him, seeing how they let me and Flango stay together. Maybe it can be achieved, maybe it would just be a waist. Whatever it is, we should definitely make sure he dies before the prince.

"Sweetheart, get out of your head, I'm trying to talk to you." Flango has always loved calling me that.

"Sorry, what did you want?"

"You." He's so cute when he's being clingy. Maybe he'll like what I want to tell the others.

"What do you think about telling the other gods, I don't wanna have to hide it anymore."

"I don't care." Great, then I'm totally telling them all later. I should probably check to see where he is now. He seems to progress faster than any of us other gods.

Years have passed and he's near death, his lovely prince has not left his side, showing their bond is great enough to bring him up here with us. But for us to do that he must have the will to stay with his beloved. I'm sure he has it.

I'm back in this place, my love . . . where did he go? Did he leave me, or did i leave him, please just let me have my love back.

"You should open your eyes."

"Ya we wanna see what color your eyes are." Twins? They weren't the gods I met last time, are they new, or have they always been here.

"Leave him be." He sounds mad, but I remember him being here last time, where are the other two?

"You should speak, you have a voice for a reason, dumbass" Oh, there they are. But what does he mean?

"How?" wait . . . That was . . . my voice. I have a voice. I have a way to tell them what I want now. I can finally speak.

"I don't think I've ever heard someone ask how to speak before."

"Ya he's weird, how would you not know how to talk?"

"You two need to relax a bit, he's never had a body that was able to speak, remember. That's what made us pick him to begin with. Plus two really need to stop ganging up on people, just because you're twins that doesn't mean you get a free pass." Wow, I can really tell who's who. That guy's name is . . . I think it's Themis, he's normally quiet and just speaks one to three words. Then there's the twins, you can only tell because they think and act the same, but they could look any more different. I mean the girl is a tomboy, and the boys a femboy. I've never met them so I don't know their names. Then the god of my planet, I don't know his name either, but he's the one that's always talking to me, the one that keeps the others in line. Then there is the hot head, he's normally quiet when my god isn't around, almost like he only cares about him and none of the others, maybe they have a thing going on between them. Then, I guess there's me. The new god. The god of Diasaki. Sako. The world full of games. I'll get my love soon, I hope I don't have to wait too much longer.