I don't think I've ever seen anything like this before, she thought, her lips curving into a faint smile. It's like the sky is trying to remind me there's more to life than what I've known.
Sam sat a few feet away, his body relaxed as he poked at the fire with a stick. The flickering light played across his features, highlighting the sharp lines of his jaw and the contemplative look in his eyes. He hadn't said much since they arrived, and Erica couldn't decide whether it was the quiet atmosphere or something weighing on his mind. I wonder what's going on in his head right now...
Breaking the silence, she tilted her head toward him. "Do you come out here often?"
Sam didn't look at her immediately, his attention still on the fire. "Yeah," he said after a moment, his voice low. "When I need to clear my head."
Erica rested her chin on her knees, watching him. "What do you think about when you're out here?"
He glanced at her then, a flicker of hesitation in his eyes before he answered. "A lot of things. Life. Choices. Things I can't change." He shrugged. "But mostly, I just let myself breathe."
That's something I've never really done... let myself breathe. Erica looked back at the sky, her chest tightening slightly. Maybe I don't even know how.
"That sounds... freeing," she admitted, her voice soft.
"It is." Sam leaned back, propping himself up on his hands as he gazed upward. "You don't have to think about tomorrow or yesterday. Just this."
Erica studied his profile in the firelight, the relaxed curve of his lips and the calm in his expression. How does he do it? How does he just live in the moment when everything feels so uncertain?
She sighed, her voice tinged with a playful edge. "You make it sound easy."
Sam chuckled, a warm, low sound that made her stomach flip. "It's not. Took me a while to figure it out. Still working on it, actually."
At least he's honest about it. Erica found herself smiling despite the nagging questions in her mind. "Well, maybe you can teach me how to stop overthinking everything."
He raised an eyebrow, his grin widening. "You? Stop overthinking? That might take a miracle."
She nudged him lightly with her foot, laughing. "Hey! I'm being serious here."
"Alright, alright," Sam said, holding up his hands in mock surrender. "Lesson one: stop trying so hard to stop. Just... be."
Erica frowned, narrowing her eyes at him. "That makes zero sense."
"Exactly," he replied with a smirk.
They both laughed, the sound echoing softly in the stillness of the woods. For the first time in a long time, Erica felt a genuine sense of ease creeping into her heart.
The conversation lulled, and they fell into a comfortable silence, the kind that didn't need to be filled. Erica traced patterns in the dirt with her fingers, her mind drifting.
"Do you ever think about what you'd be doing if you hadn't come here?" Sam asked suddenly, his voice breaking through her thoughts.
She blinked, startled by the question. "All the time," she admitted. "But... I don't think it's helped me much. I keep wondering if I'd be happier, but I don't even know what that would look like anymore."
Sam nodded, his gaze thoughtful. "Sometimes, what we think we want isn't what we need."
Erica tilted her head, studying him. "Is that how you feel about this place? Like it's what you need?"
"Yeah," he said simply. "It's not perfect, but it's home. And sometimes, that's enough."
Home. The word echoed in Erica's mind, tugging at something deep inside her. Is this what home feels like? Peaceful, steady... and maybe a little terrifying because you start to care too much?
She glanced back at Sam, her voice quieter now. "I don't know if I've ever had that."
His eyes softened as they met hers. "You'll find it," he said gently. "Might not be where you expect, but you will."
The warmth in his voice settled over her like a blanket, and for a moment, she felt a spark of hope.
"Do you ever worry about what's next?" she asked, her words barely above a whisper.
Sam leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "Sometimes. But not as much as I used to."
"Why not?"
He glanced at her, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. "Because worrying doesn't change anything. It just makes you miss what's happening now."
Erica bit her lip, her mind racing. Maybe he's right. Maybe I've spent too much time looking ahead or back and not enough just... being here.
She leaned back, letting her head rest against a fallen log as she stared at the stars. "You're annoyingly wise sometimes, you know that?"
Sam laughed, shaking his head. "Not wise. Just... been through a lot. You learn to let go of the things you can't control."
Erica turned her head to look at him, her curiosity piqued. "What kind of things?"
He hesitated, his jaw tightening briefly before he answered. "Mistakes. Regrets. People I couldn't save."
The rawness in his voice made her chest ache. She reached out, her fingers brushing lightly against his arm. "Sam..."
He shook his head, his smile returning, though it didn't quite reach his eyes. "It's in the past. I try to focus on what I can do now."
He carries so much more than he lets on. Erica's throat tightened, but she forced herself to smile. "You're a lot stronger than you think."
Sam's gaze softened, and for a moment, neither of them spoke.
The fire had burned down to embers, casting a faint glow that barely reached the edges of their small clearing. Erica leaned her head against his shoulder, her heart beating steadily in the quiet.
"Sam," she murmured, her voice almost lost in the rustling of the trees, "I think this might be my favorite night ever."
He tilted his head toward hers, his voice low and warm. "Mine too."
And as the stars continued their slow dance across the sky, Erica let herself sink into the moment, the weight of her worries lifting as she realized that, for once, she didn't need to have all the answers. Being here, with Sam, was enough. For now, it was everything.
*****
The soft morning light spilled into Aunt Nena's home, bathing the walls in a warm, golden hue. Erica and Sam had returned from their camping trip, but the quiet intimacy of the night before seemed to linger like a gentle breeze. They had fallen back into the rhythm of daily chores, yet every stolen glance, every shared moment, seemed charged with an unspoken energy.
Erica was folding Aunt Nena's laundry in the living room, her fingers moving automatically as her mind wandered. She couldn't stop replaying the way Sam had looked at her last night under the stars - like she was the only person in the world. What was he thinking then? she wondered, her heart fluttering at the memory.
From the hallway, Sam's low hum reached her ears. He was in his room, sorting through his clothes. She couldn't help but imagine him standing there, sleeves rolled up, focused yet effortlessly casual. Why does he always have to look so... Her cheeks flushed. Erica, focus! You're just folding laundry, not writing a romance novel.
Resolving to ignore her racing thoughts, Erica gathered the folded clothes into a neat pile. As she walked down the hall to deliver them to Aunt Nena's room, she passed by Sam's open door and involuntarily glanced inside. There he was, standing near the bed, folding a shirt with precise, practiced movements. The sunlight streaming through the window caught in his hair, softening the sharp angles of his face.
She froze for a moment, mesmerized. Why does he look so good doing something so ordinary? she thought, her lips twitching into a reluctant smile. Then, realizing she was blatantly staring, she shook her head and moved on.
But just as she stepped into the hallway, her foot caught the edge of a rug.
"Oh!" she gasped, stumbling forward as the stack of clothes tumbled from her arms.
Before she could process what was happening, Sam appeared in the doorway. His hands shot out instinctively, grabbing her by the arms to steady her. The sudden movement brought them face to face, their noses almost brushing. And then, in a fleeting, heart-stopping moment, her lips brushed against his.
The world seemed to tilt.
Erica's breath caught as she jerked back, her heart hammering in her chest. Did that just happen? Her lips tingled from the contact, and her face burned with embarrassment.
Sam stood frozen, his hands still lightly holding her arms. His expression was a mix of surprise and something else - something she couldn't quite place. "Erica..." he murmured, his voice barely audible.
"I-I'm so sorry!" she stammered, pulling away and covering her mouth with her hand. "That was... that was an accident, I swear!"
Sam blinked, his lips twitching as though suppressing a smile. "Uh, yeah... no problem," he said, his voice rougher than usual. "It was just... unexpected."
Unexpected? That's all he's going to say? Erica's thoughts spiraled as she tried to make sense of his reaction. Was he annoyed? Uncomfortable? Or... did he not mind it? She dared a glance at him, her heart skipping when she noticed the faintest hint of amusement in his eyes.
Just then, Aunt Nena's voice rang out from the kitchen, jolting them both. "What was that noise? Did someone fall?"
Erica's eyes widened in panic as she and Sam exchanged a quick, guilty look. He raised an eyebrow, as if to say, This one's on you.
"It's nothing, Aunt Nena!" Erica called, her voice shaky. "I just, um, tripped a little!"
"Alright," Aunt Nena replied, though her tone was skeptical. "Be careful! I don't want to hear about broken bones or furniture!"
As her footsteps retreated, the silence between Erica and Sam grew heavier. She stared at the floor, her face burning, while Sam scratched the back of his neck, his lips pressed into a tight line. Finally, he let out a quiet chuckle, breaking the tension.
"Well," he said, his voice warm, "that was... interesting."
Erica groaned, burying her face in her hands. "I can't believe that just happened," she mumbled.
Sam leaned against the doorframe, his arms crossed and a small grin tugging at his lips. "You say that like it's a bad thing."
Her head shot up, her eyes narrowing. "What's that supposed to mean?"
He shrugged, his expression turning serious. "Just that... maybe it wasn't the worst thing in the world."
Her heart skipped a beat. "What do you mean by that?" she asked cautiously, trying to keep her voice steady. Did he like that he accidentally took my first kiss?
Sam hesitated, his gaze locking with hers. "I mean... I didn't mind it," he said simply.
Erica felt her breath hitch. He didn't mind it? Does that mean... he wanted it? She quickly looked away, her cheeks flushing anew. "I... didn't mind it either," she admitted in a whisper, barely loud enough for him to hear.
He stepped closer, his voice softening. "You're blushing," he teased lightly, a playful glint in his eyes.
"Am not!" she shot back, though the heat in her face betrayed her.
Sam chuckled, the sound low and warm. "You're terrible at lying, you know that?"
Erica crossed her arms, trying to regain some semblance of control. "You're just lucky Aunt Nena didn't walk in. I don't even want to think about how we'd explain that."
Sam laughed, the corners of his eyes crinkling. "True. But if she did... maybe we'd just tell her the truth."
She raised an eyebrow, suddenly curious. "And what exactly would the truth be?"
His smile faded, replaced by a quiet intensity that made her pulse race. "That maybe... it wasn't an accident after all," he said softly.
Her heart stopped. Is he saying what I think he's saying?
For a moment, the air between them seemed to crackle with unspoken emotions. Erica searched his face, her mind a whirlwind of confusion and hope. "Sam..." she began, her voice trembling, "do you... mean that?"
He reached for her hand, his touch gentle yet grounding. "Yeah," he said, his voice steady. "I do."
Her chest tightened, a mix of fear and excitement swirling within her. She had spent so long trying to figure him out, to decipher the layers beneath his guarded exterior. But now, as he stood before her, his eyes open and sincere, she felt something shift.
"Guess we'll have to be careful around Aunt Nena," he added, a small, teasing smile breaking the tension.
Erica laughed softly, her shoulders relaxing. "Yeah... I'd rather not have to explain this anytime soon."
But as her laughter faded, her smile lingered. She glanced up at him, feeling the warmth of his hand in hers, and for the first time, she allowed herself to hope.
Maybe this wasn't an accident after all.