This life I live feels so dark, I feel like I'm in a dark hole yelling, "Help! Help!" But no one hears me. I try screaming louder but still no one. I curl up into a ball, and saying "why me? "why me?"? why cant anybody hear me? Where am I? who did this? Maybe it was that lady, who knows? you know how much I blackout I am lucky to even remember my life other then my family. I still lay there awake, cold, and hungry and wonder how am I going to get out of here, where is everyone when I need them? I always seem to forget that I fought with my family on everything, I always pushed them away even when I didn't need too and so I'm lucky if they even notice I'm gone. Here I am Laying on this cold hard dirt crying, screaming wanting to be anywhere but here in this damn hole. Am I going to die in this hole? Is anyone going to wonder if that stupid whore is dead? Will they wonder the reason of death? I lay there screaming and crying hoping that someone, anyone will come to my rescue. I lay here picturing my family, my mom, dad, brother. I mean me being the oldest how are they going to react or will they even care? I hear ruffling sounds like someone is walking, or maybe just the wind moving the leaves, but I do not want to excite myself if its not someone. I scream "HELP!" one last time, I hear the leaves move faster. Someone shows up at the top of this deep damp, cold, and dirty hole. I can't tell who it is, I am laying in a ball all curled up, the Ambiguous beingleaves the top of this deep dark hole leaving me cold and alone with nothing, no one. I uncurl from the ball I put myself into so I can keep warm from the freezing cold night. I try to see if I can see who it is, it's too dark I cannot see who it was. I hear the wolves howling in the night, owls hooting, crickets chirping, "This just isn't fair." I say to myself. I curl up tighter to keep warm, but it isn't working its so cold I could see my breath so thick like fog in the early morning. Here I lie on my side freezing, shivering only wishing I was anywhere but here in this, Anywhere but here in this damn hole. UGH. I just want out. I start to fall asleep, I wake up to my toes frozen and fingers even colder I stretch and start trying to warm up, but it is the middle of October and I am in a t shirt and shorts, no jacket or hooded sweater. Some minutes or hours pass and then I start to hear yelling, is it my search party? I scream louder and louder to where they should be able to hear me. But it wasn't a search party I think it's that evil bitch that put me in the hell hole I call it the pit of hell. She laughs in my face as she sticks her head down and with an evil hiss she says, "Ha I took everything from you and there is nothing you can do about it. Your brothers don't think of you, they don't even care they just think you're a low life , your mom and dad gave up on you because you are way to much tohandle and you just push them away, You have nothing." I yell up at her witch like face and tell her. " yes they do, you wont keep us apart forever ya know, my brothers love me and need me im their oldest sister, im the one that was there for them when no one else was. " She leaves me alone again no one to talk to or nothing to keep warm. I start to dig a hole in the ground to try to make a ramp, so I can maybe get myself out of here, but my fingers feel like frozen chunks of ice and they hurt to bad to even move so of course every damn dig hurt like they were going to fall off like I was going to lose them. I lay there listening to the noises around me waiting and looking I lay back down in a ball curled up like last time. I start getting sleepy and I close my eyes and drift off to a sleep that was the most uncomfortable sleep ive ever had. I hear leaves shuffling leaves and I scream, "Help!" This time it was light out and the ambiguous being, it's a girl ive never met. She sits on the edge of the pit of hell and asks me my name, I tell her and we start to talk about things what we have in common and how she was here or found this place. then we hear a noise in the distance like someone is coming and so then she get up and looks around and runs away before saying anything. Then the noise draws in closer and closer and then I see some eyes staring looking down on me. Its kids of all ages they alllook down on me as I struggle pointing laughing at me as if I wasn't already dealing with enough I look around and then they disappear. I wake up to The girl who I thought was a part of the dream comes back I look at her and she asks why I am here,I told her everything I told her how I used to do what I wanted with no repercussions, I didn't have the normal life of a child always thrown into adult situations and treated like dog shit no matter what I did, I was always the one in trouble always. My life has never been easy. I told her ive never been able to have a nice normal life as a child, men that I called uncle raped and abused me or they would do inappropriate things with me and told me not to tell. We then change the topic as it was getting late and I told her that I was freezing because I have nothing to stay warm with. She with no other questions asked took off the hoodie she was wearing and give it to me. "Thanks" I told her. She tells me "anytime I wish I could give you more but that all I have right now."She is gone now, I am alone now again but now with racing thoughts. was this really just all my fault I think to myself, and why did she say she couldn't tell anyone where I am or they would move me and I could never talk to her again. I really didn't want her to go because if she left I would have no one at all, who would help me out of the hell hole? I dig a small hole in the hole like adrawer in a dresser, I then hear leaves as they russel around me and I hear the evil lady walking up so I shove it in the hole and sit up against it, I don't want her to know about my friend. She closes in on the top of the hole and looks down and shakes her head "see your useless youll never get out of here this is where you will stay" she says again with that same vile evil hiss she then throws down a blanket that has holes all through it and says "use this to try and keep warm wouldn't need you freezing to death would we." she chuckles after hissing this through her teeth and she walks away I rush to stand up to try and cuss at her something but she just is gone.