Am I so fucked up to wear my safe space of a mind I got it so distantly, broken and separated from my physical form. Don't give me wrong physically. I feel every pain and problems with my body. The ones I caused with my own wrongdoings I felt on the spot. The ones later down the line that are caused then in the end as they say, felt on the spot. But what I don't think is that my mind is on the same page as a physical actions. They are both at this constant back-and-forth and it seems like I'm third wheeling on 2 other versions of me or sum slightly close to me.